The last two weeks have been a bi-polar rapid cycling nightmare. I have had no inclination to blog, even though I always feel better when I write. When I'm up, I don't want to blog about the bad times, and when I'm down, I can't do anything. This blog is important to me and important to my therapy and progress.
Eventually I will need to get a job, but all I can do is lie in the bed. Something has to change. I can't live my life through a television and a laptop. I have to do my fucking taxes.
Sometimes I take Adderall that I get from my best friend. This super speedy pill allows me to have a normal day. When I used to take it recreationally, before my diagnoses, it would flip me into a manic episode. More on this later.
What did people with depression do before laptops? Televisions? I used to devour books- reading has always been a passion for me- but my depression has ruined that source of pleasure. Depression takes away everything you love.
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